you don't

use someones toothbrush without asking
eat all the cookies
download programs without asking
drink wine in the morning
eat the crust of the loaf
make that voice
spread your sickness

A Note To All Creeps

STALKING DOES NOT WIN A PERSON'S HEART.





I used to feel bad for you but now I just think you're creepy.

context clues make you a mind reader

whom a person decides to fuck says a lot about them

i tread too heavy to appreciate such delicate artwork.

tonight is the night gloss medium answers my prayers


it sucks when people start to notice your bad sides. 

excessive honesty such a burden and gift

 among other things

 you know that song, it's by Herb Frankel



aimless.




you're sad cuz that boy has feelins for someother


even though you know it wouldn't work anyway


you


"are your floors any better?"
no, actually they're worse

unless by better you mean covered in paint

which i kinda do

poetry as thought extraction

er,

thought extraction as poetry.






next painting to be called

High School Missions Trip, 1995


"gonna be heeella good"

to quote my good friend anthony



i miss that California boy. all those boys.
but those girls.  i wonder which one of us really was the asshole. probably all of us. being a teenage girl is so intense. 

 kinda nice to be able to take care of that embarrassing social shit BEFORE going to UO.  BEEFY BACKGROUND FREE but don't worry new things stack up


can't date people whose heads are in outer space.
that means you, artists alike.


next phase in the cycle begins now. late stages of previous cycle transitional period. whathafuckyoutalkinabout


whoa
is your head going to dark places?

lost you for a minute there

yeah. transitional period for real.

...

the tempraments are flipping


worldwide nationwide

wide

girl chill out you're on your period and flying all crazy


context clues make you a mind reader

my first email address

was crashgirl59@hotmail.com

applied expressionism

contemporary painting got lost in the fury of conceptualism.

painting is controlled automatism

my head is lost in school.

wonder what the world is without that solid ground?

maybe i should go to business school...

oh, and p.s mom

i make my rules after graduation.

i know what i SHOULD do

i know what i WANNNNNA do.

i'm not sure if it's blind faith

but something is telling me

things will work out okay for me.

at least in the short term

but maybe long term as well?

yet to be determained

lofty goals can be met too soon

slow down

bad advice

present myself differently in da future

one week til my show

tamed me yet to be determained

not affraid to make an ass of myselffff. or at least not realize you're making an ass of yourself until afterward. naivety works 

la vida

i think i exist
better as a concept than
in reality

smart people sometimes know when they're being fucked over but that doesn't mean they can do anything about it.

smart people sometimes know when they're fucking people over but that doesn't mean they can do anything about it.

well then what good is being smart when it comes to others?

more interesting conversation i guess.




credit - too much or not enough?





artists are the people who feel things, think about things, that other people chose to ignore. that's a pretty heavy burden, yo.

although being self righteous is pretty fun.  (as expressed above)

derive, just drifting through life

balance your ego
because it seems you need it
wild thing to contain

you don't have to try to look cool all the time
in fact you're cooler when you don't
so stay cool, man

betcha could get hired
as a professional muse
sounds quite exhausting

not every advancement needs to be received

learning a variety of cultural expressions of the term 'avant garde'

+++++++++++++++

The Reeeeeal You Under A Facade
(the internet)


i feel kinda weird posting [this]
but then again
i guess that's what blogging is for.

?

you know, allowing people to read your inner most thoughts
but what if they're weird?
your family might not like that.
not your family, YOU.

weird; i love that word
i've decided it may just describe an entire generation
in the most beautifully accurate way


let's reclaim the word!
WEIRDOS UNITE


first rule of being a weirdo
is learning to spell the word correctly



this is just getting silly now
hehe


oh my god sarah,
are you kinda happy?
that's pretty rare.
especially when it isn't summer


a sunny spring day

vitamin D does lovely things to the soul

 even if you risk a little melanoma


+++++++++++++++



THE NEXT GENERATION IS HERE
 MY TURN


bananas are so good
but banana peels are so gross