Not.

I'm busy conformin to normalcy. Not, because that's impossible. You strive to be something you know you're not. Therefore you're set for disaster from the start. Maybe it would be easier if you just came to terms with who you are. There's no big secret. You're not broken, you're just different. There are people out there who are equal to you. Not below you. Not above you. Those standards are stupid anyway, and force you into that same standard of normalcy that you fight to avoid. It's not your fault, you were trained into it. You were taught to believe these things. That doesn't mean they are correct. You must learn to see outside of it. Even if it's true for those around you and it looks so easy to live life that way. It might not be easy for them either. Maybe you're the smarter one because you can sometimes see outside of it. There are others who can see even more outside of it. They are the truely gifted ones. Maybe happiness isn't the goal because that goal cannot be reached. Maybe your purpose in life is challenging your mind and allowing yourself to feel like you have a purpose bigger than all this bullshit in front of your face each day. Life is stupid sometimes. You are stupid sometimes. You're also gifted and fantastic sometimes. Just let that last part sink in. Maybe you need to find the one who makes you feel gifted and fantastic. Duh. Not so easy. Until then just remind yourself and keep on keepin on.